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Saturday, January 5, 2002 well, today was fun. slept in until 12, then i went over to Laci's and hung out for a while. she gave me my late bday present, its this really cool beanie with a blue nautical star, and then if you flip it up, there are red stars all the way around. i dont wear beanies too often cause i look funny with them on now that i have short hair. but, i will wear it, its sooooo cute. then we went to see a movie with matt, we saw the majestic, with jim carrey. it was really good, i liked it a lot. then we went and ate at zankou, which is always yummy. then i took them home and i talked to andrew, who convinced me to go to the house of pies with him, martin, and chris. it was actually a lot of fun. they of course, tortured me, cause im an easy target. i really need to gain a better vocabulary. its funny, when i write a paper, i can think of all these great words to use, yet, in a conversation i cant remember them. it was fun though, i really like hanging out with them.

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Friday, December 4, 2002 well, i had a semi-eventful day today. my mom and i went shopping at fashion island and south coast plaza today, which was somewhat fun. i only got a few shirts, earings and a pair of pants, but hey, its something. then i had a vocal lesson again. we did a lot of talking about my priorities, how i was going to plan my next 7 months or so before i go off to Berklee. i'm going to be doing a lot of open mic nights at clubs now and stuff, learning new music of all different genres, and might be singing at weddings and stuff like that. im really excited where i am heading. we are also working on what really is my style, that i will be selling to the public in the future. this means, i've been working out again, losing weight, not eating much at all, and keeping myself busy. then after my lesson i went into starbucks to fill out paper work and read a bunch of shit. what else happened today....hmmmm, i talked to one of my vocal teacher's old students, this guy named John. he's a freshman at Berklee now, and he lives in pasadena, so i gave him a call, and we are gunna go out to coffee sometime soon, which should be a lot of fun. oh yea, i technically dont have a horse anymore, i gave him to my riding trainer, since im going off to college, and i have been way too busy to take care of J and stuff. i also talked to my friend charlie today. i met him at the Berklee in LA thing i went to this summer, he lives in malibu, but apparently, hes moving. and hes moving HERE. i'm not sure if i believe him or not, cause he has this way of making jokes sound real, and he'll go far with it. so, hes {"moving" on sunday, so i will find out on monday if he was actually serious. i really hope he is, cause it would be SOOOOOO awesome if he went to LC with me. i had the biggest crush on him at the Berklee thing, and he even spent the night in my room on the last night, cause my roommate left earlier that day, i forget why. we stayed up all night, he played his guitar, i sang, we talked. it was awesome! i will never forget him. i wanted to kiss him so badly when we were in my room, but i was still going out with rob. oh yea, i talked to him yesterday. i forgot! i called him, cause i wanted to make a truce. i also wanted to tell him i was going to Berklee next year, and i wanted to see how he was liking school. apparently the ladies havent been treating him too well, hehehehehe! i will have to say one thing about that guy....if you arent friends with him for a long time before you go out with him, you prob wont like him and wont want to go out with him, cause he really doesnt have a personality. he doesnt give off a good first impression. he likes his roommate, which is a good thing, and he hasnt experience the cold much, cause it hasnt been very cold in boston yet. just wait. that boy really cant handle cold. so yea, i apologized to him, and he just told me that i didnt need to, and he was glad i called him. i might even go visit him before he goes back. i wanna show him our new car. damn, hes gunna cream his pants. lol dammit, i wanna go snowboarding tomorrow, but i dont think i have time. i might go and do some night boarding with some friends, who knows. i havent decided yet. i think i will wait until sunday, or maybe even next weekend. im gunna be sooooo pissed if i have early hours on saturdays, then i cant snowboard. im gunna have to ask for late hours. i saw jack today, and he told me he might have cracked a rib the other day snowboarding, cause he was grinding on a rail and went too fast and ate shit. he probably just bruised it. omg, its so weird, i have become somewhat patriotic. ME patrotic. anyone that knows me knows that im not. adam has gotten me interested in the navy, thats prob what it is. i got a navy sweatshirt. god im such a loser. lol. but hey, im just supportng a friend.

i got it!!!
Thursday, January 3, 2002 I GOT THE JOB AT STARBUCKS!!!!!!

little stressed
Thursday, January 3, 2002 ok, well, my mom and i went to the community center, and we got the date changed for my party. then we actually went and looked at the place and it is damn small. i can only have 160 people! aahhhh not good. i know 300 people that wanna go. fuck. im gunna have to narrow it all down. then, when we got home, my mom really flipped out at me. i was just like, screw the fire code, we can fit 250 in there, and i was just joking around (sort of), but she like, freaked out. cause of the liability. the fact that my family has money is the exact reason that we can get fucked over by someone sueing us because THEIR kid is an idiot and got hurt. then she came up to my room and apologized, and that was all good then. but then we got into a lot of other stuff. we got into the whole, respect thing and accepting me for who i am. which is a big deal to me, because it seems like she is the person that would want a cheerleading staight A student thats the most popular girl in school, and dresses conservatively. yea right, how opposite am i from that? well, im not a straight A student, im a PUNK, i have more friends than most people but its not like people consider me the "popular girl." but who the hell cares? i finally told her how i felt about not being accepted, and i just want her to get to know the stuff i believe in and all of that. she ended up stomping out of my room and leaving for her appointment. i drove around a little, and thought a lot. she just came home, and we talked rationally, and things are ok now, and we are gunna try and understand each other more, and im gunna try to figure out a way to show my appreciation of all i have. i have always known i have been blessed. being adopted makes you think of things differently then most people. its the whole feeling of wanting to be needed or wanted or loved. i go through a lot more than any of my friends or aquantences have ever known. laci i think is one of the only people that knows all the shit that goes on in my head. matt fleming and laura and david o'connor know too. ive had so many depressing moments, and i used to be into a lot of bad shit. im a good kid, i do some bad stuff, but not as much as those "popular" people. well, im off to my interview.

long time no write
Thursday, January 3, 2002 lemme think, whats been going on since tuesday? yesterday, hmmm, well, i had a vocal lesson, which was actually really good. i have to start buying a lot more music from different genres for college, which i will do soon. then i went and saw my little boy taylor, who painted this AWESOME painting for me for my bday. its soooooo cool. its like, this rose, with a black background and a dark moon, and all this shading. its really awesome. then i went out to dinner with my parents and the o'connors, which is always exciting. then i watched porky's, which laci told me i had to watch. omg it was too funny!!! well, thats what happened yesterday, nothing very eventful. it was weird though, i talked to thatcher for like 2 hours, and it seems like he and i might go on some more dates sometime soon, which would be really cool. im supposed to go to his house sometime today...when his mom isnt home....oh lord. this morning was really dope! i went to court about this ticket i was contesting and THE COP DIDNT SHOW UP!!!! IT WAS THROWN OUT!!!! THANK GOD!!! now i have a meeting with the guy at the community center about my party, which i have to change the date for. my friend Jason, whos the guitarist for I Decline (not the jason i've been talking about in earlier shit), has to go to India for his work that weekend. and my whole point of doing this party was so that I Decline could play, and im not going to give amanda the satisfaction of them playing at hers and not mine. i should just move my party the day of hers, but im not that mean. anyways, and then at 4 i have an interview at starbucks, which im really excited about. so yea, i will write later.

better day
Tuesday, January 1, 2002 well, today was better than yesterday. i went to starbucks this morning, because i turned in an application yesterday, and i got an interview on thursday!!!! im sooooo excited. i have a few friends that i have gotten to know that work there already, and they got all excited,and told me i would get the job, and they would all put in a good word for me. yeah!!! then i went shopping by myself, which i actually like doing, cause i can go at my own pace and all of that. laci was gunna go with me, but she had to write her research paper so that she and i could hang out tonight. so, i got a bunch of pants, a skirt, a beanie, and a shirt. then i went to laci's, cause she finished her paper, and showed her all my stuff. then we decided to do some more shopping, cause she had some money. we went to the media center in burbank and got some shoes, then we went to pasadena, where she took me to this place called "Zankou" and its armenian food, and it was damn good! then we went to old town were we went to urban outfitters, and i got this AWESOME jacket that was marked down from $160 to $119 and then it was 50% off. it was awesome!!!! then we saw "not another teen movie" which actually wasnt that bad. so yea, that was my night. it was fun.

happy fucking new year
Tuesday, January 1, 2002 well, tonight was just totally stupid and pointless. what did i do tonight? abso fucking nothing. no one had plans in the past few days, which isnt a good sign. i was invited to party with these guys in covina, but i really didnt wanna drive out there, then some of my friends were going to something at mountain high, which sounded dope, but i didnt wanna drive there either. my parents are a little anal about me driving on the worst night of the year with so many drunken idiots on the road. then i was told kira was having a get-together and so was andrew. at this point, i have realized that i havent been hanging out with that crowd lately, and from what i can tell, i kind of dont want to. i truthfully think most of them are extremely immature, and i really cant handle that. i dont lik truh-or-dare, i dont like games, and i dont like acting like im 5 years old. i guess its all the years of me being an only child and hanging out with people older than me. its just really frusterating. then there's laci. well, she wanted me to come over, but her aunt was being kinda mean about it or something, so i wasnt invited. which i think really blows. i feel really awful, its like, i have hundreds of friends, but no one to spend new years eve with. even my parents went out. then i had the opportunity to spend those few fun hours with ben and his mom and his friend billy over at his house, but no, i wasnt allowed to drive out to the studio city area. what the fuck. i mean seriously. jack of course called me, and he was going to the LC party, and he wanted me to go, but i told him no. at this point, getting drunk with old friends i havent hung out with for a while, watching them make asses of themselves, then doing something stupid in front of them really didnt sound good. so what did i do......i stayed home. i drank a beer when the ball dropped, and just acted pissed all night, especially when my parents came home. i hope they are fucking happy. i could have been kissing ben, instead i was home, with the dogs, drinking a beer. fuck them.

SOCIAL DISTORTION
Saturday, December 29, 2001 last night was absolutely amazing!!!! this has been the best bday week ever, except for something that happened only 2 hours ago, but that will come in the end. ok well, i went to see SOCIAL DISTORTION with dalton, laci, matt, spanky, rich, noah, and eric. it was soooooo awesome. this band called IGNITE opened for them, and they turned out to be a really good band, i had never heard of them before. im totally into them now. the singer had a great voice, and i totally fell in love with it. while they were playing, these couple of skinhead looking guys like,moshed by themselves, and they were really scary looking and annoying. then SOCIAL D started. rght off the bat, my friends an i were front and center and the pit started. full shoving up in front. it was crazy!! we were surounded by sweaty, smelly, big, and scary mexicans. they were trying to get on me and laci and it was sooooo fuckin scary. oh well. but yea, i got pretty beaten up, and my ear got smacked once and i thought i was gunna die. i was already sore from snowboarding twice in 3 days, includin that day, so i have bruises and sore muscles. so that was last night. mike, the lead singer, even ended up spitting on me. i know its gross, but it was still dope. then, today, i slept in until 1:30 or so, and then just relaxed. then around 6ish i went over to thatcher's house, cause he and i havent chilled for a while. i left around 7, and then i was driving on foothill, right off of hist street. i see this rv that was pulling out, and so i conpensated and went more into the middle of the street, but he apparently kept coming, and he smacked into the side of my car. we pulled over, and there's a shit load of body work that needs to go on, and he appologized majorly, and gave me his info, and he didnt even take mine down cause he knew it was his fault. so, i went back to thatchers cause i was really shaky, and shit. now im home, and my parents arent yet. aahhhh. it will be ok though, but i need my car.... i willtake it in on monday.

pain
Thursday, December 27, 2001 well, today was another awesome day. i went out to starbucks this morning with my mom, and we actually had a really good conversation, which doesnt happen very often. then i got to spend the whole day with adam. from like, 3-10. first we went to old town, cause he had gift certificates to anchor blue. we went straight to the tattoo/piercing place when we got there, cause i knew my friend chatal was working, and i wanted to get my ear pierced by her. so, i went and i got a 14 gague barbell in my right ear, like the cartiledge. fuckin hurt like a bitch, but i love it. then we went to anchor blue, where i helped adam shop, and that was a lot of fun, damn did he look good in those clothes. then we ran into tess and katie, and we all chatted a little. then i got a hold of laura, who was already in old town, and we followed her back to her house, and she and i had to go to fastlane. so we went there and rented her a snowboard, cause im taking her up tomorrow. then i took her home, and adam and i drove around a little. we went to the park, then up to this mountain and looked at the city lights, hung out, talked, smoked, and hooked up. then we went and grabbed a bite to eat and went home. it was really an eventful day. i asked him why he was actually attracted to be, cause i really couldnt believe it at first, and apparently hes really attracted to "bad ass chicks that know what they want, and are truthful, and hot" i swear to god i almost died. we both actually wished that he could stay longer, he even wanted to stay until i left for boston, or just make me go back to florida with him. dammit dammit dammit. oh well. he's actually gunna ask for leave for the weekend of prom..cause he wants to go with me. man, is he a great guy. that is of course unless i end up going out with ben, in that case, i would have him stay in florida, cause i would feel bad. time for bed, i have to get up at 4 to go boarding again.

THE BEST AND MOST EXCITING BIRTHDAY EVER!
Wednesday, December 26, 2001 well, i turned 18 today!!! my day started out gret, got up at 4:00 AM to go get coffee, and pick up Matt Fleming, his HOT friend Adam (whos actually in the navy now, and he got like, 12 days off or something), then to pick up Nick and his little br Andy. then jack and sean met up with us at ralphs, and we all went up to th slopes. we had a great day actually, i spent it the whole time with Adam. here's the scoop on him. i met him sometime last year by matt, and i totally got this huge crush on himright away, cause hes beautiful. well, i havent seen him since then i dont think, and today was just great. we really got to know each other, and i really had to take care of him so he didnt hurt himself, cause he shouldnt have even boarded due to the fact hegoes back to the navy on the 1st. well, after a run, sean yells, at me, and he's all, "that;s nick". nick was being pulled by the ski patrol in one of those carrier things. we went to the ski patrol office place to see if he was ok, which he wasnt. he broke his collar bone. OH GREAT. no one gets hurt under my watch dammit. i wasnt with him though at the time. well, we ended up having to drive him down to huntington hospital in pasadena,cause the wrightwood ambulance wouldnt take him that far. so that ended our boarding day by 2 hours or so. but its ok. nick will be fine, i hope its not too bad. then i took matt and adam back to matt's house, and then we all mat up at my house an hour later, cause we were going to see lord of the rings, and go out to dinner fr my bday. but while i was waiting, the best thing happened. I WAS ACCEPTED TO BERKLEE COLLEGE OF MUSIC!!! ON MY BDAY!!!! i am totally giddy still about that. well, then we went to korean bbq, which was really good, and the guys all payed for it. oh yea, matt's other friend i hadnt met before came too, i cant remember his name now. anyway, we went to the movie, and adam payed for me. it was a really good movie, but it was REALLY long. then, after that, i took adam home, and he and i ended up hooking up a little. we had been flirting all day, and matt drove my car on the way home from mountain high and due to the fact that we didnt have sean's truck to take back our boards, we had 5 boards that needed to get into my car somehow, so one was in the back seat, so adam and i were cuddled on one side. it was great. anyway, when i took him home, we decided that we have to do this again before he leaves, and i think we are going out tomorrow. this is a guy that i never thought i could touch. he gets all the girls in the world, why the hell would he choose me. he started it all too. dammit, why does he have to leave? grrrrr. oh well, he loves jumping out of helicopters into the ocean and all that, so im not gunna stop him. but yea, my bday was AWESOME!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS
Tuesday, December 25, 2001 well, its christmas morning, and i am waiting for our friends to get here within the next ten minutes or so. the o'connors are coming, our friends the caan's, the delcamps, and matt fleming and his family are just stopping by. matt and i are going snowboarding tomorrow for my bday, and his friend adam is coming to, and nick morzav. im excited. im gunna be 18! yes!!!!! so,,,,christmas eve......my uncle didnt come to dinner last night, cause he and my aunt got into a fight. hes not doing too well, he has depression and he wont get help, and he drinks all day long. not a good thing. he really needs to get help. i dont even like the man that much, and it still makes me really sad what hes going through. the night was good anyway though, we had filet mignon and it was the best we have ever made!!! YUM, and i got a few cool things. i got a big gift certificate to best buy from my cousins, and it made my day! and i got a bunch of cash and this well....ugly leopard print turtle neck type thing from my grandma, which im never going to wear. i till prob be able to take it back. i cant wear turtle necks, i feel soooo clostrophboic in them. anyway, and then i went to matt watson's house, where his mom gave me this cute little "E" charm, and then i went to ben's to give him his card. apparently we have decided that he and i are going to be really close friends and take it from there. if something happens, it happens. i love the necklace he gave me. and then this morning, i opened presents. what have i told everyone in my family, DONT BUY ME CLOTHES, I PROBABLY WONT LIKE THEM. my mom did it anyway, the top is ok i guess, but its a little tight around the bust area...but the one thats supposed to go under it? OMG its one of the ugliest things i have seen. but hey, its whatever. i got a tiffany's bracelet though, which is cool, and some toe rings, and of course MY GIBSON LES PAUL. i brought it down and put it under the tree so i wouldnt forget that was actually my christmas present. so, im waiting for friends to come over, then i get to open some bday presents too. im excited.

Merry Christmas Eve
Monday, December 24, 2001 I am such a happy camper! i got up early this morning and went to the Infiniti dealership, and he gave me a free oil change as a bday present, which i thought was cool, and then told my my car is ok. my check engine soon light came on on tuesday, and i havent been able to take it in until today. then i made a dish for dinner tonight, and after that, my mom let me go over to BEN's house. that toally made my day, week, month!!! ahhhhh, god, im totally head over heals. he and i got each other presents, and i got him this really awesome sweatshirt he wanted. he loved it, which made me happy. and he gave me this really awesome necklace and a pair of earings, and i totally love them. im actually wearing them right now. i forgot to give him the card i wanted to give him though, so im gunna drop by tomorrow afternoon and give it to him, cause its really important. well, my family is coming over now unfortunately. shoot me

UNKLE FILTHY
Sunday, December 23, 2001 well, today was a pretty good day. i woke up late, went to brunch to see David, cause he had his ACL surgery on tues., and hes feeling a little better. i hope he makes it to dinner tonight. our families are having dinner tonight to exchange presents and stuff like that. i went shopping after brunch to get their presents. i got laura this really cute belt with a big belt buckle, that i knew she liked, i got andy a really cool silver keychain, and had his name enscribed in it, and then for david i got him this really cute button up shirt, cause i get him one each year, cause he loves them. then i got ben a present. ben ben ben. man, i talked to him for like, an hour this morning, and i just got to know him more and more. we discussed what we wanted to give each other for christmas. he's wanted this triple 5 sweatshirt for a really long time, so i decided i wanted to get it for him. i found it at the mall, and man was it expensive. more expensive than any hooded sweatshirt i have EVER bought before. but hey, it was for ben, and he is prob gunna end up being my boyfriend, so hey, why not. we talked about that too today actually. we decided we are gunna hang out a lot more, and if stuff happens, it happens, and i have a feeling it will happen. hes a great guy, and we have a shit load in common. i really do like him.

The Roxy
Saturday, December 22, 2001 God! last night was AMAZING! i took Ingrid to the Roxy to see Unkle Filthy play. jon wanted me to come early, so we were there around 6, the doors opened at 7:30. we got in for free, it was great being on the guest list. man, does Ben look good playing my guitar!!! ingrid and i hung out with lee's mom for a while, and then the doors opened, and there was this crappy band that was totally blink 182 sum41 mix. then it was this other ok band, and then unkle filthy. they did sooooooo awesome. kat, natalie, brad and joe showed up and we all had a good time. i took 2 rolls of 36 film, and man did they turn out amazing! then after, i went up on stage and talked to bed and told him how well he did, and he told me how much my opinion meant to him, and i really had no idea that it mattered to him. it was awesome. i do like him a lot....more than jon at this point. ive become infatated with him because of how he plays my guitar, how he looks at me, and how he hugs me. good lord, im falling for him. aahhhh. anyways, i told him i was starting to like him, and we are gunna talk about that later tonight. so yea, we saw them play, and then we saw ionic play. they weregreat too, but we couldnt stay for the whole set, cause i had to get home. then today, i got to hang out with the guys except for ben for the afternooon. we went and got some food then went to guitar center for like, 3 hours. it was a lot of fun. i'm pretty sick, which isnt agood thing, it wont end. my voice is pretty much gone. im gunna sleep now.

SOOOOOO COOL!!!
Wednesday, December 19, 2001 ok, so tonight, we had a chamber singer gig at the California Club in downtown LA. it was for a men's club type of thing, all rich, conservative men in tux's. it was sooooo cool. they gave us multiple standing ovations, they talked to us, they cheered and stuff. it was soooo much fun. it was the best gig we have had so far, and we have had 9 in 2 weeks. they have this tradition, where they sing that song that is sung at new years, i cant remember the name now, while holding hands crossed arross your front, and like, swayed and stuff. it was sooo cool, cause they had us join them. then we did god bless america like that, and all of my friends know, i am really not a patriotic person, and i thought it was so amazing. then after, we all got to schmooze, and had a good time talking to them all, i just had a great time in general. what else happened, cade played at lunch today, and they sounded great as usual. and i even had my cade shirt on that i made too, and had the guys sign it just for fun. i forgot, on monday, i was rejected from Emerson College, which is in Boston, and i actually dont care, cause it was the one college i didnt want to go to that i applied to. i dont even know why i applied. oh well. im just waiting on my berklee one.

NEW YET OLD FRIEND
Tuesday, December 18, 2001 hey, as the title says, my friend finally came back from New Orleans. Well, i met him (Tyler) when i was in the 7th grade and he was in 8th at a rave, and he was totally nice and totally hot, but then moved to new orleans like, a few weeks later (grrr). so he and i talked through email a lot until about a year ago, but i got an email from him a few days ago saying that they moved back and hes now going to CSUN. so, i went and visited him today, and it was a LOT of fun. we ended up kissing a little, but nothing really big happened. i didnt realize how much i actually missed kissing a guy with a tongue ring. god, i love it. well, he's a great guy, and we have until my bday, and then he goes back to new orleans until the 6th. then i dont know how long he has until school starts up for him. he didnt do the first semester, cause he missed the deadline, but he's all set up for 2nd. well, of course, he complicates my life even more, now that he is here, and he turned even cuter. he's gunna come to lunch at school tomorrow, and then we are gunna go out and get something to eat, since im not gunna go to 6th. i wanted him to come and hear CADE, since they are so great. well, that was today. yesterday was a pretty good day also. we had a long ass rehearsal though for our holiday concert. i have to say, i really really really HATE doing combined stuff. way too many people on different pitches. omg, this one girl thats right behind me and next to britanny reynolds is tone deaf, i swear to god. its aweful, and shes really loud too, which makes it even worse. then after that i went and had some panda panda with jason, which was nice, and then i had a chamber singer gig at my church. while we were there, we saw this substitute teacher we had last year that we all wanted to kill because he was mean, and changed everything that we were doing with our music. grrrrr. mr. eddy....AHHHH. just the thought of him makes me upset. well, the gi went well though, i thought. cause i really thought hard about not sticking out at all with my voice, which is hard for me, cause im pretty damn loud when i sing. but, i did it, and im proud of myself. everyone did really well. time to go.

fun day
Sunday, December 16, 2001 Well, today was a lot of fun. i got to sleep in and i relaxed, talked to Ben (guitarist from Unkle Filthy) for about an hour, then i went to see the GAY men's chorus (that was for your andrew....)at the alex in glendale. Bruce Mayhall was my choir teacher's teacher when she was in college, and now he is the conductor of it, so we went to support his first performace. it was really really good, and at many times quite humorous. the people that i went with were andrew, hans, nathan, martin, ms. rios, ms. arthur, and a few others. i sat between martin and andrew which was funny as hell in itself. martin and i cuddled the whole time, which was sweet, cause we have a cool relationship like that. he really knows how to be a smooth guy lol. i know laci and i both would totally go out with him, but he wont believe us. lol he's a really great guy, who really deserves a great girlfriend to match. i really hope that his first one isnt someone that would treat him like shit. anyway, back to the concert. there were 2 songs that really stood out and will remain in my mind forever. one was "santa baby" OMG was it the funniest thing ever! totally gay and flamboyant (i know i prob spelled that wrong). and the other was the 12 days of christmas, where they sed blacklights to show the little characters they were singing about. it was amazing. well, that all ended at about 6, cause after we stayed to say hi to Bruce. then, andrew, hans and i went to togo's where i had my first experience. and yes, andrew, it was good. now, im about to finish my research paper, and probably not get ANY sleep. thats my stuff of the day, so im gunna go now.

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Saturday, December 15, 2001 ok, well, i havent written in a long time, so here it goes. whats been bothering me: 1) amanda. im really frustrated at the fact that she told my BEST FRIEND Laci to read her blog which pretty much said she was still in love with Laci's boyfriend (amandas ex), and had her read it deliberately. i personally think that that was very innappropriate, rude, and just plain stupid. she really needs to get over it. she and i are actually having an argument as i write this, and she pretty much told me that i know nothing about her life, and that i give her shit all the time, which i dont. i know that one for a fact. i think shes really just overreacting. and claiming that you are over a guy, but you cant stand seeing these 2 perfectly happy people together is really messed up. i may seem like i am being dramatic, but this has been building up for a while now. im just so frustrated about the whole thing. plus, we carpool. which isnt a good thing at the moment now because she wants me to leave her alone, so its up to her if she wants a ride or not. i personally dont care. i dont hate her and im really not mad at her, just frustrated. i really dont see how i could have ever given her crap. from what i can tell, ive been really nice to her. 2) people have just been kinda bitch lately, and i dont know what it is. 3) GIRLS ARE BITCHY AND IN THE WORDS OF JASON "SHOULD NOT HANG AROUND EACH OTHER...EXCEPT FOR ERIN AND LACI, CAUSE THEY'RE JUST WEIRD" ok, what has been going on in my life: 1) i hung out with unkle filthy tonight. they are a band, and is really really awesome. i have known the singer for like, 6 years or so, and he and i have always liked each other but never really did anything about it cause we had our separate lives. he goes to loyola, i went to marlborough, then to la canada. so, i dunno, nothing ever happened. apparently, i have been the only one that has ever been in their studio while they were jamming or rehearsing. pretty cool huh? well, we hung out for like, an hour and a half, then we all came to my house to pick up my cd burner for them to borrow. since they live out in the hollywood hills area, it was a long-ish drive. but once we got here, it was a lot of fun, we all hung out and drank and just had fun. they've declared my house a new chill house apparently too, like after shows and shit. which is dope. they want me to introduce them at the roxy this friday, so i am going to. they're gunna put me down as a member of the band so i dont have to pay and everything. im excited. this brings us to 2) i got a guitar today. an electric. gibson les paul. its absolutely amazing, i love it. im letting the guitarist of unkle filthy, ben, play it at the roxy show. when i told him that, he almost died. it was sooo funny. 3) well, theres this guy, he will remain nameless at the moment. he and i have been debating on the whole dating thing for a while and last night we thought we should just listen to our instincts, and maybe try it, but im having doubts again. just because of the whole Jon thing (unkle filthy). so at the moment, i really dont know what to do, cause this guy is going through a lot right now, and i dont wanna hurt him. its all completely complicated. well, thats all for now, im going to bed.

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Sunday, December 9, 2001 Hey everybody! Well, i came home yesterday afternoon from San Francisco. i guess i had a good time. we stayed at the Ritz Carlton, which was really nice. i drank a lot, which was always fun. i went with my parents and with my best friend David's dad who is on the board of trustee's at the University of San Francisco, which is the reason i was up there. i have now come to the conclusion that i do NOT want to go there, cause i really dont like the city, and i didnt like the vibe i got from the school. i didnt realize it was a catholic university, and that is my major reason for not going, because i and pretty much strongly against catholicism. well, that is what i did on thurs.-sat. i got home at 4pm on sat. afternoon, came home for an hour and then went straight to the Palace in Hollywood to see my friend's bands, CADE and Unkle Filthy play. it was a Battle of the Bands thing. i missed CADE by like, 5 min, but then i got to spend a lot of time with them when they came outside. it consists of Brad, Joe, Mike, and Garrett. they are all really good, i have geology with Brad 1st period. and then Unkle Filthy played last, and they were AMAZING. i am soooooo happy i went. it has my friend Jon, Kermit, Lee and Ben. i have known Jon for a really long time, cause my horseback riding trainer is his step-mom. well, i like him a lot, which creates more problems in my love life area. well, that was my weekend. i'm really tired, so im gunna go now. i hope you all have a good week!

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Thursday, December 6, 2001 Hey! What's up everyone? I'm leaving for San Francisco in about 30 min. I'm going up to see the University of San Francisco (even though, i know i dont wanna go there, but whatever). I'm seeing my best friend David who goes there, which should be a LOT of fun! Ok, well, have a good weekend, I will be back Saturday sometime, and I'll be either going to the I Decline show at the Troubadour or the Battle of the Bands at the Palace. ADIOS

Wednesday, December 5, 2001 Hey! What's up? This is my first entry, so I should probably describe myself. My name is Erin, and I go to La Canada High School, and I'm a senior. I will be going to Berklee College of Music next year to dual major in music business and music production/engineering. I plan to eventually own my own independent punk label. I am in Chamber Singers at school, and if you can't already tell, music is my life. I am totally into the punk scene, and i also listen to pretty much all kinds of music. My favorite bands include, Social Distortion (i'm seeing them on my b-day which is Dec. 26), the Vandals, Rancid, the Ramones, US Bombs, Union 13, I Decline, and many others. Ok enough babbling. About my current life. I've been dating a lot of people. There are a few in particular which confuse me immensly, which is understandable. What is high school without drama? I can't wait until college! So yea, guys are confusing right now, but I'm just trying to have fun right now. I have a load of great friends, and I will talk about them now. Laci: I've known her for a little over a year now, but we are joined at the hip, and i consider her my bestest friend in the world. she has taught me so much. Amanda: I've been friends with her for about the same amount of time as Laci, and she is awesome. I took her to Hawaii this summer, and man, was that crazy! David O'Connor: He goes to the University of San Francisco, and I'm going up to stay with him this weekend for 3 days, which should be crazy. our mom's were in the same sorority at UCLA, so i've known him forever. Matt Gangi: wow, so much to say about matt. matt is the love i will never attain, because we are in the "brother/sister" relationship. which is at times, very hard. he's one of the most amazing people i know, and he's completely talented in music. Adam Marquez: well,he was a boyfriend for a while, but he was one of the strongest infuences on my life. when i was totally into the christian scene, he introduced me to so much. i will always love him. Jason: there's a lot to say about jason too. most of which should really not be put in here, he knows what i mean. but of course, i will always love him. Andrew M: he is a great singer, and a good friend. his mean comments make my day most of the time (when they are about certain people or things) Andrew (church): man, he's one of the coolest dressed guys i know! and he really inspires me a lot. Anna: well, she and i have had our ups and downs because we didnt get to know each other too well until recently. she is a great person, and im really glad our friendship has grown so much. Brat: haha this guy is great. i havent known him for very long, but he's a fun guy, and im excited to get to know him better. Jack: hahahaha too much to say. hes funny as hell when hes drunk, and i have met some really fun new people because of him. he's a great guy. Joey (Berklee): this guy is dope. he's soooooo musically talented too. hes a great guy, and im really glad i got to know him. Charlie (Berklee): man, what a kisser. lol. you know i love ya charlie. you're a great guy, and yes, you can get into berklee, and you should apply. i love your dreads, and you are a rally fun person to be around. Hans: man, i almost forgot. my german love, (in a brotherly way). he's a great musician, and a great friend. i have learned a lot from him. Adam (Berklee thing): man, this guy is awesome! what a cutie. little hardcore boy. i'm looking forward to getting to know him more by the time summer comes around. Noah: this punk kid is funny as hell. ive gotten to know him over the years and hes hot and entertaining, what a combo. Joe (from prep.): man, this is the most unattainable love EVER!!! and joe, of course you know why, and a few others know why too. i will always have a crush on this guy, no matter what. he's a great dresser, funny, smart, and talented. Carl: hahahahaha what to say about Carl. he's funny, and im gunna get him into punk and not as much electronica if its the last thing i do. Jordan: one word. shalala he'll know what im talking about. Peter: he goes to Azusa Pacific. thanks to him, i have an awesome sound system in my car, and he's a great guy to top that off. the Showoff guys..Dan, Kyle, Magoo, Chris, and Dave: they are soooo awesome!!!! not only are they a talented band, but they are a lot of fun, and im looking forward to my date with you Kyle!!! the I Decline guys...Jason, Joey and Duck: too bad Duck is leaving the band, i never got to know him very well. but joey and jason on the other hand, are amazing. i love their music, and of course, they are hot as hell. i will never forget introducing them at the Roxy. oh man, i almost forgot Matt Fleming: he's also one of those unattainable loves. well, we tried dating once, but it was weird, it was like, kissing ourselves. we were meant to be great friends. i will always love him. Well, if i didnt get to you, im sorry, but im tired of writing, but check back later. but, you will always have to remember that you all made an impact on my life.